Self Ban until Nov 1st

I tilted like a monkey on Oct first after dropping about 13 buyins to the sickest coolers/beats that I could remember. I'm not proud of it and lost close to 2k playing high stakes limit hold em. It's so embarrassing writing about it. I'm just going to think long term and regroup on Nov 1st. I still got close to a 5k roll and I'm going to drop down in November.

I just looked at my long term results and it makes me feel better. I know I'm a small winner overall since I started playing online poker in summer 2005. I'm up a little over 10k (over 400k hands with bonuses/rakeback) but it's nothing to brag about.

I really do think tilt is the biggest edge in this game. I know it too, I love playing against people who are on tilt. Strange thing is, I go on tilt too.

When I come back, I'll probably just play 100 k hands of $50 nlhe FR and get my confidence back and just go from there. I really do think I'll be stuck grinding out low stakes forever until I get my tilt under control.

As for life, I've been working out alot at the local YMCA. Fifteen minutes of cardio and then stretching. Playing pick up basketball and the touch football league. We're getting killed in the football league but it's still fun to compete. I feel alot better physically and mentally. Hopefully, it'll transfer over to my poker game.